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As I sit here, reflecting on the journey that has brought me to where I am today, I can’t help but marvel at the twists and turns life has taken. In my 40s, I’ve come to a deeper understanding of something I thought I had grasped long ago: trust. I’ve always understood trust and faith. Growing up in a reilgious way, surrounded by family who held their own profound beliefs in the Divine Creator, faith was like the air we breathed.


The idea of trusting in an invisible reality became much harder when my life was so busy, so rooted in a very 3D existence. The bills, the responsibilities, the daily grind—these things can easily distract from the bigger picture. It’s one thing to say, "I have faith," when everything is smooth sailing, but when life starts to crumble around you, when the ground beneath your feet feels unstable, that's when true faith is tested.

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I remember when I got married. It was one of the happiest days of my life, but it was also one of the most uncertain. I didn’t know how things were going to turn out. Would we be able to navigate the challenges that life brought ? Would we grow together, or would we grow apart? There were so many unknowns, and at times, the fear of what might happen was overwhelming. But I trusted in the Divine Creator. I had to. I couldn’t see the future at that time, but I believed that there was a plan, a path that had been laid out for me, even if it was invisible to my eyes.


And day by day, step by step, our marriage unfolded in ways I could never have imagined, filled with both joys and challenges that strengthened our bond.


Then came motherhood, a journey that’s as terrifying as it is beautiful. Holding my newborn for the first time, I was filled with a love so intense it almost hurt. But with that love came fear. What kind of world was I bringing my child into? How would I protect them? How could I possibly be enough? The weight of that responsibility felt crushing at times. And yet, once again, I had to trust. I had to believe that there was a greater plan at work, that the divine creator who blessed me with this child would also guide me in raising them. And in the moments when I felt like I was failing, when everything seemed to be falling apart, I would stop, take a breath, and remember that the hand of the divine was at work, clearing a path, even when I couldn’t see it.




Building my career was another test of faith. It’s easy to get caught up in the hustle, to chase after success as the world defines it—titles, money, recognition. But there came a point when I realized that this pursuit was based on a false foundation. I had to learn to trust in something greater than myself, to walk by faith and not by sight. There were moments when it seemed like everything I’d worked for was slipping through my fingers. Projects fell apart, opportunities vanished, and I was left wondering if I was on the right path at all. But in those moments of doubt, I found strength in trusting that the setbacks were not meant to destroy me but to redirect me, to help me see a different path that I might have missed otherwise. And slowly, but surely, my career began to take shape in a way that felt more authentic, more aligned with who I truly am.


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Even in matters of health, when my body didn’t seem to be cooperating, I had to learn to trust. There were times when the fear of the unknown—the "what ifs"—threatened to take over. But I chose to believe that there was a reason, even if I couldn’t see it at the moment. I trusted that the challenges I faced were not punishments, but opportunities to grow, to deepen my connection to the Divine, to learn more about myself and my purpose in this life.


As I look back now, I see how every moment of uncertainty, every time life seemed to be falling apart, was actually a part of the Divine Plan. The things that I thought had come to destroy me were actually there to clear the way, to make space for something greater. And that’s the thing about trust—it’s not about having all the answers or knowing exactly how things will turn out. It’s about believing that even when you can’t see the way forward, there is a way. There is always a way!


In this journey, I’ve learned that trusting in the Divine Creator isn’t just about having faith in the good times. It’s about holding on to that faith when things seem darkest, when you’re standing at the edge and can’t see what’s on the other side. Because it’s in those moments, when you take that leap of faith, that you truly begin to see the infinite hand at work, guiding you, protecting you, and ultimately, leading you to where you need to be!


When Life Falls Apart: Finding Trust in the Greater Plan


 
 
 

Every Sunday, I go on my morning hikes in this gorgeous state park. As I wander through the forest with my headphones on, I listen to some amazing meditation music, and I can feel the weight of the world melting away. These hikes have become my sanctuary, a place where I can shed all my baggage, negativity, and heavy thoughts.


Each hike presents a unique experience. The journey up the hill is always different,it has always carried an outer body feeling. along my journey I meet various creatures and traverse different terrains, each nook and cranny revealing something unique. One day, though, I found myself feeling particularly down. I was stressed about some new financial obligations and desperately needed more resources to meet them.


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As I approached a park bench by a beautiful lake, I decided to sit down and take in the view. The serene water, the lush trees, and the friendly birds provided a much-needed respite. I began to focus on gratitude—appreciating the landscape, the shade from the trees, and the birds' company.


As I slowed life down and looked around, I noticed something remarkable. The animals and creatures in the forest seemed so content, so balanced. The birds flew gracefully, without any hint of chaos. The spiders moved with calm precision, the ants were busily content, and the butterflies were enormous and beautiful.


In that peaceful moment, my inner voice spoke to me. It said, " can't you see that everything in the forest is balanced? Nothing competes here. Everything works in harmony." And it hit me—that's how the world is supposed to be. Just like the forest, where no tree competes with another, and the ants work together happily, every bird flies with grace, knowing its needs are met. The turtle and the frog coexist peacefully, and the deer graze joyfully.


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It's powerful to stop in your tracks and recognize that something greater than yourself offers you a new perspective on life. Lack first begins as a concept that we first agree to, and then lack begins to take on a life of it's own. If you free yourself from thoughts of scarcity, you can live in abundance. Living in abundance and maintaining a healthy mindset—that's the goal, that's the key, I strive for this slow down daily.


Living with a healthy mindset, embracing abundance—this is the goal, the key to a fulfilled life. Our thoughts and words shape our reality. The fruits of our labor are directly influenced by the seeds we plant in our minds.



So, let’s cultivate a mindset of abundance. Let’s live in harmony with ourselves and the world around us.


Peace and love to you all.


Eating the Fruits of a Lacking Mindset

 
 
 

I want to share a deeply personal journey with you all, one that I believe many of you might resonate with. Not too long ago, I faced a massive realization that shook the very foundation of my life. Everything I thought I had secured, every paradigm I meticulously created, seemed to crumble around me. The urge to buy a huge house and the drive to live a life working towards material achievements were thwarted at every turn. It felt as if the very success I had envisioned was built on a horribly false foundation.


As I witnessed my dreams falling apart, one painful revelation after another, I realized that the things I thought would make me happy were mere illusions. The possessions, the accolades, the outward symbols of success—they lost their value in my eyes. I was living to purchase things that ultimately didn't bring fulfillment.



During this breakdown, I started to see life in a new light. I understood that happiness wasn't something external that I could acquire. Instead, it was a choice I had to make for myself, a conscious effort that required introspection and acceptance. I had to see life as it was, not as I wished it to be, and embrace it fully.


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Creating a space of peace became my priority. It allowed me to discover the potential of my new life. I envisioned a life where my heart's desires aligned with my newfound consciousness. This vision became my guiding star, and I work diligently and consciously towards it. This purposeful living had to be something I was passionate about, something worth the blood, sweat, and tears because it held deep meaning and purpose.

This realization and shift in mindset opened up my spirituality in such a profound way that I can never be the same. I see the liberation that comes with doing the work and clearing out what no longer serves my soul's highest good.


I encourage you to hold on to hope, even when things seem hopeless. We are all going through breakdowns of some sort, but remember, these breakdowns can lead to breakthroughs. They are meant to heal what is broken, give us confidence where we lack courage, and lift us up when we feel downtrodden.


Look at life from a different perspective because that is where insight and wisdom lie. Embracing hope when life feels hopeless lead me on the journey to know thyself, no matter how difficult it may be, know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.


Peace and love to you all.


 
 
 
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