No one prepared me for life the way I thought it would be. I always assumed that the formula was simple: have a family, raise my children, work hard, and provide. But somewhere along the way, I encountered a series of spiritual tests that no one had warned me about. Tests that shook the foundation of everything I thought I knew.
Over this past summer, one challenge after another came crashing down. Finances, health, spiritual confusion—I found myself struggling to keep up, trying to find my way. And then came the breakdown, as inevitable as the tide. It wasn’t just the material world falling apart around me; it was my sense of self, the life I had built, and the dreams I thought I was supposed to follow.
The hardest part? Feeling like everything I had ever known was slipping away, and I had no idea how to make sense of it all. But as I stood in the middle of my unraveling, something powerful happened. I stopped. I took a deep breath. And in that moment of stillness, I realized that what I was going through wasn’t just some random series of unfortunate events. It was the breakthrough my soul had been crying out for.
These moments, the ones that feel like they’re going to break us, they’re the ones that build us. They’re the changes our grandmothers always knew were coming but never had the words to fully explain. They understood that life isn’t just about survival—it’s about transformation. And with transformation comes responsibility.
I came to understand that if I wanted to live a life full of hope, joy, and peace, I had to create it. I had to take full responsibility for the life I wanted to live, and that meant acknowledging that for too long, I was only half-living. My days were filled with fleeting moments of joy but rarely a sense of deep, lasting fulfillment. That’s when I realized the tests weren’t sent to break me, they were here to teach me how to live fully.
Spiritual wisdom doesn’t come wrapped up in neat little packages. It comes through pain, confusion, and surrender. I had to face every fear, every insecurity, and every false belief I’d held on to for so long. But in doing so, I also began to let go of the baggage. The things I thought I needed—the validation, the external markers of success—became meaningless. What mattered now was the inner transformation.
The more I opened my eyes to this, the more I saw the world in a new way. There were new possibilities waiting for me—opportunities I had been too afraid to see before. But even in this new phase of my life, the challenges didn’t disappear. They just changed. And now, I find myself using my spiritual gifts in ways I never imagined. Not just to say that I have them, but to truly live by them. To put them into practical use.
It sounds strange, right? How can something spiritual be practical? But that’s the truth of it. Everything I’m going through is meant to change me in the most fundamental ways. It’s like a spiritual evolution, with each test stretching and strengthening my soul, making me more resilient, more capable of embracing the life I’m meant to live.
I’ve learned that when we’re at our most uncertain, when we have no idea which way to turn, that’s when the divine is working most powerfully on our behalf. It’s in those moments of surrender that we truly begin to see where we belong in this world. I’ve discovered that my gifts were never meant just for me—they were always meant to be shared, to help others grow and evolve in their own journeys.
So, if you’re reading this and you’re in the thick of it, feeling like your life is falling apart, I want you to know that these tests are not here to destroy you. They are here to help you grow. To show you just how strong you really are, to flex those spiritual muscles you’ve been building all along. And while it might feel overwhelming now, know that you’re exactly where you’re meant to be.
I don’t have all the answers, and I don’t always know what’s coming next. But I have enough faith to know that the answers will come in time. October’s theme, “Assess your life with creativity,” has been on my mind. It’s about looking at the pieces of your life not with fear or regret, but with the excitement of what could be. And for me, that has meant embracing the co-creation of my life with the divine.
No longer am I manifesting from a place of fear, worry, or discontent. Instead, I’m opening my heart to the infinite possibilities that surround me. And I want the same for you. I want you to see the possibilities in your own life. What are your gifts? What do you truly desire? How can you create the life you want?
We are not alone in this journey. We are a community, and we need each other. My prayer is that this has encouraged you in some way. We are all picking up the pieces of our lives, one test at a time, but we are stronger than we know. And together, we will rise.
Picking Up the Pieces of My Life After Experiencing One Spiritual Test After the Other
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